I know he loves me and I love him but it is so hard to just give up

I know he loves me and I love him but it is so hard to just give up

I left him for 3 of those years and was depressed even alone, wishing I could meet someone who loved me

I am e back home. I have major depression and see no way out. I have been in psychiatric hospitals 3 times.

Lost my home, my car. What’s left? I hate who he has become. He is a Binge drinker and goes from job to job. …